I’m currently 40 weeks and 1 day pregnant, for those of you not too hip on the timing of gestation, that means i’m a day overdue, no biggie.
Anyways, my mother called me yesterday while i was at my prenatal appointment and left a drunken message about how she’s in detox and she’s sorry, and she’s not going to be there for my baby’s birth, or a while afterwards while she compleates the program.
I’m 22 years old, and this isn’t the first time she’s skipped out on me when i need her the most, when i was 12 she had me institutionalized, i stayed in a residential treatment center for 3 years. when i was “ready” to be released she opted to instead ask that they release me to a grouphome, all the while telling me she loves me and didn’t really want to but that she “just can’t handle me”.
I often feel like i wasn’t ever wanted around in the first place, actually i know i wasn’t. i’m the youngest of six, three from her first marrige and three from her second, i know that just being a sixth child doesn’t make me unwanted, that’s not the only reason i feel that way, but it might give you a clue when you consider how she’s cast me aside so many times before.
This time she was telling me how she would be there with me and my husband at the hospital, and that she would be helping me during the day for a few days after i got home. well that’s obviously not going to happen now…
the worst part is i’ve forgiven her every time. i’ve never told her that she’s fucking with me or that she’s making me feel like crap, because frankly, even though i’ve been to enough aa meetings to write a book of short stories, i don’t know how to “deal” with alcohalism, i don’t know if i should tell her or ifd i’ll just be making her worse.
so i guess my question is, what can you tell me to help me feel a little better?
becuase i’m starting my post-partum depression a bit early i think…. and my poor hubby doesn’t know what to say to me to help :/.
sara is a douche.. and a guy?
i might add, that my mother has been in and out of treatment and rehab for all of my life. she's compleated 21 day programs numerous times, all court ordered.
in april she got out of prison, a four year sentance for multiple DUI's and wreckless endangerment. instead of having the four felonies on her record, they booked her under her second married name, allowing her to go back to a teaching job (1st and 2nd grade kids) and qualify to move into a two bedroom condo in the area she works. she's on parole this time (it was always just probation before) and i don't yet know if she violated and is just trying to look good for the courts, but that's usually what she does.
for those of you who have something to say about 40 weeks of pregnancy.. DUH!
http://www.babycenter.com/6_your-pregnancy-40-weeks_1129.bc?intcmp=timeline
I don't recall asking: "Do you think i'm exagerrating?" but thanks for your answer… moron.
Wow, I thought I had the worst childhood ever but I think yours might be as bad. Institutionalized for 3 years?! If I were you, I would never talk to her again. Surely the anger will be pernicious and manifest itself in some way or another (…alcoholism…) but at least that b!tch will be out of you life. Why would you let her have any relationship with your children?
40 weeks pregnant? Should you go get a c section asap? That's more than a day overdue…..I think you might be lying or exagerating about some or all of this…which would totally be explained by the type of childhood you allegedly had.